My Cousin accidently "outs" me to My Sister
Soon after, I told my cousin at school about me having a girlfriend. Later, she called my house, since my sisters and I all sound alike, she thought it was me. My sister, didn't give me the phone and pretended she was me. My cousin said, "I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE DATING A GIRL!" My sister replied with a,"WHAT!"
I didn't want any of my family members to know anything about my personal relationships. Especially because when I was 12, I babysat for my older sister and we were up late watching Ricki Lake. The topic was "lesbian mothers." To this day, I still remember her saying, "I think that is gross. How can two people of the same sex have a child and raise it?" I never said a word.
Yes I Am!
Later that day, my sister asked about my "lesbian acts." I didn't deny it at all. I said, "Yes I am." Then my other sister confronted me in the restroom, asking all these weird questions. "Is she your girlfriend?" "Who is she?" "Did you know for a long time?" "Do you have sex with her? If you do use a CONDOM." I laughed. She then replied, "You're my sister, and you will always be, I love you no matter what!" I was happy at the moment, I didn't believe it.
My older sister accepts me, wanting to meet every girl I date. But every time she comes back from Wisconsin, I get a new one. She never gets to meet just one girl I've stayed with for a while.
Coming Out to My Mother
I keep telling my mother. I bring girls home and introduce them as my girlfriend. She laughs and says, "YOU GAY". I know she's in denial. Maybe that's a way for her to deal with it. Especially for an older Asian woman. I tell her numerous of times, yet she believes that I am having sex with men. I am turning 19 soon and I still don't know what to tell my mother, should I just play it straight? I don't mind playing it straight. No matter what, my mother probably believes I'm straight.
I Kiss Girls
On the other hand, my only brother who I look up to never said a word to me about it, but his actions makes me believe he accepts me. This one time, I had bought a shirt that said, "I KISS GIRLS" in rainbow colors, he saw and laughed. This bought me comfort and joy. I knew at that very moment, he loves me for me.
I am lucky my family loves me, knowing that other families do not accept their own flesh and blood because of their sexuality.. I am happy that my family sticks together no matter what!
--Tia
